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by Jelelle Awen
"We have been Star BEings, Oneness Consciousness, much more than we have been Human BEings. We are here to experience the Bliss Mess of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the sufferings and the joys, the tears and the laughs!"
Bliss Mess: The Wonders and Challenges Of Ascension offers a new perspective on awakening to Fifth Dimensional or New Earth frequencies in a way that honors both the movements and the difficulties of this process. Ascension is the process of raising your vibrational frequency from third dimensional to higher at all levels of body, mind, soul, and heart, along with a natural process that is happening to Earth or Gaia. This process of enlovening the heart, enlightening the mind, crystalizing the body, and awakening the soul is a deep, life changing, and challenging one that we are being invited to engage with on both collective and personal levels. Finding support and guidance along the way can contribute hugely to our experience of it!
In this book, Author Jelelle Awen provides this kind of support and guidance through teachings, poetry, channeled messages, Ascension energy updates, and sharings from her personal process during Ascension and awakening for more than 15 years. Bliss Mess covers a prolific creative period for Jelelle, a six month period from June until December, 2017 in which she wrote and shared writings every day. It is a companion book to Sacred Human, Arising Wonder - which shares Jelelle's writings from January until June, 2017. The writings in Bliss Mess provide both an expansive, very current and progressive context to the overall collective Ascension process AND an intimate window into Jelelle’s world full of multidimensional realities.
She shares from states of Kundalini awakenings that come from having galactic sex with her Sacred Union Counterpart Soulmate Raphael to Galactic Ambassadorship experiences with Pleiadian, Arcturian, Reptilian, Blue Avian Star BEing aspects and more! She introduces you to her parts work and Metasoul Aspect connection process that opens up access to previously repressed traumas and karma in your emotional body and soul from other lifetimes/timelines, leading to healing on a quantum level. It is both transcendent and practical in offering a way to navigate the Ascension process through connecting with aspects of yourself or subpersonalities.
Jelelle describes in detail how to engage in the parts work connection experience at both the 3D Self (ego) level and at the Metasoul/Other lifetime frequencies. She describes the common parts that she has connected with and seen in others such as the Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Child, Inner Punisher, Inner Mother/Father, and the fourth dimensional Gatekeeper. Working with parts as separate energies from your 'I AM' essence allows for compassionate space holding, more objectivity, less triggering and charged reactions, and ultimately integration and wholeness as the energies shift and transmute. The energies of these parts becomes unanchored from 3D reality through negotiation and inner ambassadorship, allowing for more grounded and integrated experience of 4D (and higher) consciousness states as your daily reality.
Bliss Mess invites you into a magical, radically honest, emotionally authentic, and catalytic world to discover your essence as Infinite Love in Sacred Human form!
Published: January, 2018
Written June through December, 2017
Intro: The Bliss Mess Of Ascension
We are shifting. We are awakening. We are evolving. We are becoming Sacred Humanity. We are currently in a phase of major consciousness shift from what we have known as five-sense based life to much more expanded consciousness in response to all areas of our lives. Five-sense based reality filters most of what we experience through a flattening lens of literalness, rationality, and practicality. The mind dominates mainstream culture, fueled by the unhealed wounded masculine or Patriarchy. The wounded masculine shows up in relationships of all kinds and in all kinds of ways and is a root cause of much suffering, pain, and violence - along with the wounded feminine.
This ‘age of reason’ and expression of the wounded masculine has been needed until it was no longer serving our deepening evolution as a species. The cutting edge of our evolution is about shifting our consciousness to include healing of the wounded masculine; arising of the Sacred Feminine; healing of our emotional bodies and core shadow-based woundings; activation of our Higher Heart’s capacities of compassion and creative intuition; and integration of metaphysical, esoteric, spiritual, energetic, and non-dualistic consciousness states into our experiences of everyday, practical life.
This shift has long been prophesied and energized as a timeline that would occur in this Now, beginning in the 1960’s and activating at particularly accelerated and deepening levels starting in 2012. Many of us have chosen to be here during this time to experience and serve this grand shift in consciousness for our own soul’s growth and to contribute to the transformation of the collective too. We came here to be witnesses, active participants, leaders/teachers/students and audience during this exciting, epic, and often tumultuous show.
This process of awakening and shifting consciousness is generally called ‘Ascension.’ Ascension offers an internal shifting rather than a literal, exoteric experience of going to Heaven when dying and leaving the body, as offered in many religious pictures. The Heaven is within, ultimately, and can be experienced in the Now as increasingly higher vibrational frequencies of consciousness on all body levels - emotional, spiritual/chakral, social, physical, and mental - are activated within us. During Ascension, we increasingly experience life as a ‘Heaven on earth’ and ourselves as heavenly BEings having a human experience.
Ascension is a collective invitation, yet, an individual experience. Each soul is invited to ascend in every moment and with every choice point. In some ways, it is as simple as feeling that Ascension occurs (on both collective and personal levels) anytime we are choosing love over fear. The process of Ascension is happening on a soul level to all souls as it is natural, organic, and spring loaded to occur for and to all of us. There are not just some ‘special’ souls who are granted the gift of Ascension. The degree and rate that the Ascension process can be consciously experienced and deepened is dependent on what each soul has signed up for and where they are in their growth journey.
Rather than some grand, sweeping moment where all souls are ascended into a blissful Heaven because they qualify for it and are ‘redeemed’, Ascension is actually an ongoing process available to all of us that is marked by highs and lows, ups and downs, both struggles and triumphs, openings and closings. Ascension accepts that we are learning and growing; that we purposefully chose to forget our Divine nature so that we could remember it again; and that ultimately we are not broken, not sinful and do not need ‘saving’ by anything or anyone outside of us, even if we choose to have guides and teachers during phases of our journey. It is a love-based process that respects our sovereign choices, even if they are coming from resistance and fear.
During Ascension, we are experiencing a grand awakening of the soul, enlightening of the mind, enlovening of the heart, and crystallizing of the physical body. Awakening of the soul is our higher consciousness coming into our awareness bringing depth, meaning, connection with a ‘higher power’ or Divine Source, moving beyond personality and self image, and a deepening sense of passion purpose. The veils of amnesia that we chose as souls to put over ourselves when we incarnated here are lifting, so that we can ‘see’ and feel the multiple timelines for which our individual soul source, or Metasoul as we call it, or Higher Self, is expressing itself as many fractals projected out. The fractals all represent the whole, just as in nature. I will be sharing much more about the Metasoul in this book. The lifting of the veils gives us access to these Metasoul fractals from other timelines, archetypal energies (pre-programmed collectively held ‘typical’ patterns of seeing and responding to life that play out individually), our soul gift expressions, higher consciousness states, and our karmic binds and soul pattern woundings.
Enlightening of the mind expands our mental capacities beyond the rational, logical, and linear into experiences of the non-dualistic fabric of reality, into more quantum, multidimensional reality processing from the intuitive, creative, right side, of our brains. We are shifting out from a left brain focus that has been conditioned and trained by our educational systems and emphasis on academic learning and attainment. It becomes less important to be tracking, analyzing, and understanding with our minds what we experience. We experience more ‘loose brain’ moments where the grids of the mental body expand and, in some ways, ‘drop’ so that we can feel the arising magic and Is-ness of everything.
Enlovening of the heart offers the healing of emotional woundings, opening up of defenses, feeling our vulnerability and sensitivity, and being able to transact intimacy with ourselves and others. We move out of codependency-based relationships based on duty and obligation that offer familiarity and comfort, yet we have outgrown on the soul level. We are more drawn to soul resonance and transactability on all levels of heart, mind, soul, and body. The primary, foundational relationship that provides a source of constant love is first with ourselves and all aspects of us.
Crystallizing of the body happens as our every living cell transitions from carbon-based to crystalline frequencies and into more expression of the pure light and love energy that it is. This process also activates previously dormant DNA strands as well as the pineal and pituitary glands, which become transmitters and receivers of the light codes that come in from Cosmic sources. Our bodies become truly a treasured vessel, held with honor and respect for their health and well being.
Ascension is both a collective experience (whether people are conscious of it or not) and a very personal one. Gaia herself is going through Ascension and raising her vibrational frequency as a planetary consciousness from the third dimensional Earth to much higher. What this means is that there is a necessary transitional phase for Gaia (and for us) of turmoil, death and rebirth, chaos, upheavals, and disorder as the old collapses to make way for the new. For Gaia, this dis-ease manifests itself in global warming, extreme weather patterns and shifts, and a sense of lovingly ‘shaking off’ some of Her human guests as and if necessary. Feeling Gaia as a planetary consciousness that is evolving along with us allows for a sense of collaboration and individual choice in our relationship with Her, rather than the dominant, disconnected, and adversarial one that has been so prevalent for so long.
Ascension is the process of moving inward, moving onward, and moving upward. The moving inward is about becoming inward focused rather than externally focused. Moving inward is about going within during meditative states; through therapeutic, deep feeling-based senses of ourselves as we connect with and integrate different multidimensional aspects of ourselves; and through tracking what is happening inside of us and not just reacting to external triggers and situations. As we move inward, we become so much more aware of our internal world and see that what we experience ‘outside’ of us is a reflection of the inside.
Moving onward is healing beyond the traumas of our past experiences, both this life and from other lifetimes. Onward is to be in the Now, present moment, rather than constantly associating with or dissociating from previous situations and circumstances. Moving onward is feeling the root cause of our traumas, feeling them and healing them in order to transform the energies that are stuck in the past that are very accessible in the Now, until they vibrate more in alignment with our essence. Onward means that we are no longer anchored to the past and to the experiences that we had then with much more fluidity to let in the present.
Moving upward is raising our consciousness frequency from third dimensional (3D) to transitional fourth dimensional (4D) to heavenly fifth dimensional (5D) and beyond. Upward is bridging to higher vibrational frequencies of love and light from within our human bodies and integrating those energies with our human hearts. Upward is our Higher Self coming into our body and, therefore, into our conscious awareness, eventually becoming our primary expression of self in the world. Upward is about experiencing Heaven in the Now and from within us, not as a place we ‘go to when we die’, yet rather what we can know right in this moment. I’ll be sharing much more in this book about the differences between 3D, 4D, and 5D consciousness states and the selves and parts of us that form around the experience of them through teachings along with sharing my personal experiences and process navigating this ground.
Ascension is a labor process for Humanity as a collective as well as on an individual basis with tightness, pain, and birth contractions, then bursts of joy, relief, soul bigness expression, and love. This is a messy process, as all births are……it can be like riding an edge of near devastating loss while experiencing blissful, opening vistas of deepening love for self and with others. Letting go while you are letting in and the seemingly paradoxical feelings that come up from the emotional body as this is navigated.
Ascension is going into the bliss mess to emerge more and more whole, complete, and sacred. The bliss aspect comes from bringing in higher dimensional frequencies of love, Unity Consciousness, and joy. Tastes of Unity Consciousness remind us of the Divine Source we came from and how connected we were in thoughts, feelings, and ideas with each other. This sense of unity offers a balm to heal the wounds that come from being separated and isolated from each other and, in many ways, from ourselves too. We also experience increasing unity with Divine Source, with the remembrance that we are a fractal from the Divine, and that we will eventually return to this state and can connect with this energy now through our Higher Selves.
The bliss is reuniting with our higher dimensional consciousness aspects of our Higher Self that vibrate to angelic frequencies and dimensional states; with Star BEing Aspects from other planets and galaxies; and with aspects that share the same Metasoul as us from other lifetimes and timelines. We experience intense reunion feelings as we are reuniting, integrating, and merging our previously 3D-based consciousness with the much higher ones available through most of these aspects. The bliss happens as we move out of the 3D reality of polarity, fear-based duality and separation…...and into fifth dimensional 5D love-based community and intimacy with self and others. The bliss is the feelings of being One yet not the same, or what I call ‘conscious duality’.
The mess aspects of Ascension are the decisions and choice points that happen as your soul awakens and moves into your consciousness. What you desire and want in relationships of all kinds shifts as you seek out more soul and values resonance. This can lead to phases of letting go, death, and mourning with fallouts in relationships, conflict, and pain. 3D life loses much of its meaning and significance as you pull up the anchor from it, along with what you have been conditioned to believe about it.
The mess aspects of Ascension are about the healing of the 3D Self that has been doing and being in the polarized, fear-based 3D world. The mess is identifying the protective layers that had to be created over the preciousness of your innocence, your essence as a love sponge, your heart and soul porosity. Feeling these protective layers gets messy because they’ve been created to keep you safe. They run on fear and the modulation of love. The mess is the undigested pain and wounding that live in your emotional body, stuck there and still energizing there because there is not linear time for the emotional body. Traumas are freeze-framed in the moments that they happen and ‘pool’ and ‘pocket’ in the emotional body, forming into parts of yourself or subpersonalities, awaiting your curiosity and connection.
The bliss is the relief that comes out the other side from feeling and healing and BEing with these layers, these pockets, these wounds, and these traumas. This is the cathartic relief of finally releasing what has long been pent up and trapped energies in our emotional bodies and soul fields. Going through the mess to get to the bliss is the process for embodying our Sacred Humanity or our Higher Self coming more into our bodies and consciousness.
It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of Ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring-loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.
There is a necessary gestation period, a necessary cocooning, within this bliss mess Ascension and awakening process. This is a time of growing and learning, becoming more aware and conscious about 3D life and the limits it has placed on your consciousness. This may happen mostly on a mental level for a phase of time, where you are finding new resources offering a picture that is an expansion beyond what you have been conditioned to believe about reality from your 3D cultural indoctrination called ‘school.’ Your curiosity grows as your mind expands into the Infinite Possibilities that arise when the ceiling of five sense perception is lifted.
Then, your awakening moves into more personal grounds as your desires to end suffering and experience more love grow inside of you. This especially manifests within relationships where the previous grounds are no longer enough and longings of deeper soul resonance and intimacy are growing from within you. There is much at stake then, in a deeply personal way, as the old timelines begin to collapse and new ones come into BEing that are fueled by your heart and soul desires for a life of authenticity, service to love, and BEing YOU.
What is at stake is the reality that parts of you have created and the rumbling caused by the question of, “Is this an expression of my soul or is it not?” What is at stake are relationships and whether they will go deeper into arising grounds of soul, heart, and mind connection or whether they will complete. What is at stake are previous means of livelihood that required you to shrink your soul reason and purpose for BEing here. What is at stake is comfortable geographies and living situations that keep you hooked into frequencies that you are outgrowing as a soul.
It, then, is a phase of letting go, as you feel what has been previously comfortable and safe begins to feel more and more confining to your Soul Self or 5D Self. The energies being offered by Divine Source are wanting to facilitate the birthing of the new you and the letting go of the old in all areas of life. This invitation is meant to manifest for you in a real and tangible way……in the physical, in the mental, in the emotional, in the spiritual, in the financial, in the environmental areas of your life. What has been put into or related to from a compartment becomes flooded by the catalytic waters of love. In this flood, you do not drown but rather learn to float, learn to surrender, learn to get used to the sensation of moving waters.
Your bliss mess gestation period may be coming to completion. You are birthing a new you into a new world even while the old one may be collapsing around you. This can be a very intense experience and, in moments, can feel almost unbearable to navigate for parts of you as the world they have known is falling down. The sense of love with yourself, with others who are in soul resonance with you, and with the Divine offers support during this transition. Connecting and holding space for the reactions that come up in the emotional body allows for moving through and digestion. These love frequencies with self and others become the midwife of your butterfly self who has left the cocoon behind in order to soar the skies of a reality with Infinite Love possibilities as you BEcome Infinite Love in human form!