In the first years of my awakening journey, I knew without a doubt that I had a strong connection to Avalon in my soul. I felt how much the magic of that realization carried my heart for a while, though I didn’t yet understand what to do with that information, exactly. It never felt like something to lead with in my life or service of love expression, just like some sacred data about myself to hold in my heart.
Then, a few years ago, the connection to Avalon became even more relevant to feel into. It wasn’t something to glamorize or romanticize. It was something to dive deeper into, to feel what that lifetime (or lifetimes, it turns out) was about in all ways, including the trauma and dramas that came with it. This journey was especially deepening for me, not surprisingly, when I spent nearly a year living in Glastonbury, where it truly felt like stepping through a portal over and over again, sometimes very unconsciously, and realizing just how much there truly was to feel into about Avalon - in its golden age and at its fall. There have been other sorts of priestesses I’ve felt in my Metasoul too, from Atlantis, Lemuria, and the Magdalene lineage, and they also bring with them different frequencies and pain.
I feel it’s likely that all awakening women have had lifetimes as priestesses as well as nuns, and that these devotional, vocational lives are pinging and ringing through our NOW experiences. Meaning, they are vibrating in our current reality and we’re invited to feel into how, why, and what these ‘inner soul sisters’ of ours need from us.
These energies are quite a mix to feel. They hold experiences of being persecuted, having to live cloistered/protected lives, being devoted to a punitive god/goddess, and also, as is absolutely true for many of my priestesses, not being able to experience deep sacred union mateship with a masculine counterpart. In other words, our Metasoul sisters weren’t often allowed to be a human woman who also happens to be activated in her service expression and have the two truly come together and there is a very deep ache created by that experience. There is so much at play here, so much to feel into, and such a powerful journey that truly does offer a new experience of your feminine embodiment and soul gift expression both within yourself and with others/a mate.
In my own Metasoul, there have been so many lifetimes of being a priestess or a nun, fully activated in spirituality/religion and receiving many gifts from that alignment, even a deep fulfillment. Yet, the pangs of wishing for a mate to complete the picture are so often there too, which has created such a despair in my heart in THIS lifetime over and over again.
This mate ache is being answered by my romantic bond I’m in now which feels like it spans a range of lifetimes, including many of these, yet I’ve recently been processing how this despair tends to come up anyways and can cap the compassion and breathing in my relationship, creating a bind more so than allowing us to bond more and more. There are other priestesses, such as in the Magdalene lineage/order, who have experienced these two desires - for the Divine and for a masculine - come together, and those are the ones I often lean into to help me re-template what’s possible for the lifetimes of longing as I feel these ‘sisters’ and bring them home to my heart and soul.
During our group call this coming Sunday, May 21, Jelelle and I will be supporting your own journey of discovering, feeling, healing these priestess/nun connections within you. It is such a rich and unfolding journey that holds many gifts. You can join us by donation and you have the option to share with us on camera or in the chat, or just simply silently take in (which your nuns/priestesses may prefer, actually!) and that is welcome too. You can also just donate to receive the recording if you aren’t able to attend live.
You can visit soulfullheart.org/sacredunionseries to find out more about this call and also about other sacred union calls we’ve offered in these last few months.
Sending much love from my awakening heart to yours,
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.